Well. You're the one who decided to meet in the gym despite it being fairly obvious I was not actually dying over wanting to learn more about basketball.
But seeing as I do want to be supportive of your hobbies, you can tell me about it on our way back, and take it as a chance to gather your thoughts.
[ TO TAISHO so he can meet DELORES. Who he will see once they reach his room! She has been carefully placed on his bed, but aside from her, a journal, and all the fanmail he's gotten so far, his room has basically nothing it's exactly as a standard new room would be ]
"Delorecchi". I'm glad she made a good impression on you though, well. She deserves it.
[ he's going to turn over to her and then just making a gesture toward Wildfire ]
Delores, this is Wildfire. Yes— I know you've been wanting to meet him, but we'll have to postpone any in-depth conversation. Just give us some space for now, and we'll talk later.
[ and then he just gestures over an empty chair for Wildfire to sit in like he didn't just talk to a mannequin ]
He showed me everything while we were dreaming. I suddenly watched his world just suddenly go up in flames right in front of me . . .
[His face suddenly changes to one that seems a lot more unsure and unhappy.]
Actually, Valocchi. I know I said this already, but this time I feel like I can understand it better so I'll say it again. I'm sorry I treated your memory like that. This time, I really get why you were mad.
[ he 100% does not know how to react to it. Wildfire had already apologized but hearing it like this, with this much sincerity behind it is. Well. Wild. But he sighs, and after an ENTIRELY TOO AWKWARD moment he reaches for his head to just give him a single headpat.
before he sits down on his bed ]
We already know you don't think before you speak. I appreciate the apologies, but if you hadn't been so terribly insensitive, we wouldn't be here today.
[ by which he means he appreciate having had the chance to know you nerd ]
I guess that's true. Still. It was terrifying to be there in person, too.
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Anyway, I've just been stuck. I don't know how I should respond to Emecchi now. Emet Selch? Emecchi? I've been so confused, I don't even know what to call him anymore.
I get that a lot of people here have killed people . . . even I've killed somebody. I try not to think about that too much since people's worlds are so different from mine, and I know that's part of how Imeeji works, too. But thinking about all of the people that will probably die with his wish, and he doesn't even think of it as them dying . . .
Yet it also feels like he's trying to care about the home and friends that he lost.
...I trust him. Even though I knew he had a lot of secrets, it didn’t really bother me cuz I knew his kindness wasn’t fake. When I first arrived, I was miserable, but he reached out to me first and cheered me up. He kept reaching out afterwards, too. He tried to protect me when we went through that Hell House.
Even at the end of the dream, he tried to make me feel better by leaving me with an image of my home. How can I not feel grateful to him?
I'm not saying that that makes murder irrelevant, it obviously doesn't. But his motives and methods don't change any of that, either. I remember I asked you if you were concerned that by allowing yourself to accept your teammates you would be a villain, as you Baritones are so fond of saying. And I admit part of me does wonder if you're struggling with that now as well.
The way I see it it boils down to one question. Who gets to decide whose life is worth preserving? Is it Emet-Selch, or is it his enemies? Accepting one means inevitably denying the other.
[ yeah. He notices, and that seems to be the intent ]
It's not black and white. Which is exactly why I said to try and discard right and wrong — at the end of the day that's always a matter of perspective. Though of course it's easier to say for me, since I was a hitman.
Either way. Whichever you pick it involves someone dying or being ereased out of existence. There's no winning option.
Silencchi isn't "whole", but she is whole to me so I'd never let anyone try to use her to fix someone else. But if Kurokocchi lost his memories of me and would lose his lifespan in the process, I'd want him to be whole again, too.
[Sinks into his chair, running a hand through his hair, obviously frustrated.]
I've tried, but I just can't accept those as the only choices. I know I'm still immature, and I don't have a lot of experience either. Obviously, Emecchi is like a billion years old, and if he couldn't find a different solution in all that time, how will someone like me find a way to do it?
So in other words, this hits you in a very personal way. Just so I can get a clearer picture of what's going through your head, can you tell me what's going on with Silence?
Huh . . . I guess so, but only because it was the easiest way for me to understand everything.
I know you got a big mouth, but it would be nice if you kept this quiet for Silencchi's sake. I don't know if it's a secret, but I'm sure she wouldn't like it if everyone started talking about it to her.
Anyway, so Song is the original "owner" of her body, and Silence is a "Chain" that Song made a contract with. She's a marionette demon or something. Anyway, Song and Silence share one body. Oh, I guess Symphony is there, too, but uhh, I don't really know that much about her.
Now I don't really know for sure, but I have a feeling Song didn't really get a choice in sharing her body with Silence. I know I already said I wouldn't let anyone get rid of Silence, but I know it doesn't feel right to ignore Song's feelings either.
You'll be relieved to hear that apparently, I only have a big mouth when it comes to you. I'm not in the habit of gossiping. Mostly. I'll do it if it's funny.
[ but that's not the case now so let's focus on the actual important shit ]
I understand why you'd think of her circumstances as similar, but to be honest, they're not really. Well. Save for that same old question.
In this case, which one is more deserving to live on? You've obviously already made your choice, though I can tell you don't feel good about it.
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[Frowns.]
I mean I’ll talk about it, I kinda want to, but I don’t hate him enough to talk about it where everyone can see.
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But seeing as I do want to be supportive of your hobbies, you can tell me about it on our way back, and take it as a chance to gather your thoughts.
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Listen, you could have changed your mind...
[Grumbles, but he eventually goes to put everything up before they head back. To Taisho? Baritones? Either or.]
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Yo, Delorecchi.
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"Delorecchi". I'm glad she made a good impression on you though, well. She deserves it.
[ he's going to turn over to her and then just making a gesture toward Wildfire ]
Delores, this is Wildfire. Yes— I know you've been wanting to meet him, but we'll have to postpone any in-depth conversation. Just give us some space for now, and we'll talk later.
[ and then he just gestures over an empty chair for Wildfire to sit in like he didn't just talk to a mannequin ]
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[He's just. Gonna sit in this empty chair. And not address the wild thing that just happened in front of him.]
Did he tell you what happened? His whole wish and everything that goes with it?
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I'm aware of it, yes.
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[His face suddenly changes to one that seems a lot more unsure and unhappy.]
Actually, Valocchi. I know I said this already, but this time I feel like I can understand it better so I'll say it again. I'm sorry I treated your memory like that. This time, I really get why you were mad.
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before he sits down on his bed ]
We already know you don't think before you speak. I appreciate the apologies, but if you hadn't been so terribly insensitive, we wouldn't be here today.
[ by which he means he appreciate having had the chance to know you nerd ]
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Anyway, I've just been stuck. I don't know how I should respond to Emecchi now. Emet Selch? Emecchi? I've been so confused, I don't even know what to call him anymore.
I get that a lot of people here have killed people . . . even I've killed somebody. I try not to think about that too much since people's worlds are so different from mine, and I know that's part of how Imeeji works, too. But thinking about all of the people that will probably die with his wish, and he doesn't even think of it as them dying . . .
Yet it also feels like he's trying to care about the home and friends that he lost.
[makes a frustrated noise]
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What do you think of him? He might have lost your respect, at least right now, but you do still feel affection toward him.
Forget about the morality of this issue for the time being, and start from that. If you discard right and wrong, what do you feel?
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Even at the end of the dream, he tried to make me feel better by leaving me with an image of my home. How can I not feel grateful to him?
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The way I see it it boils down to one question. Who gets to decide whose life is worth preserving? Is it Emet-Selch, or is it his enemies? Accepting one means inevitably denying the other.
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[It looks like he’s struggling with that question.]
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It's not black and white. Which is exactly why I said to try and discard right and wrong — at the end of the day that's always a matter of perspective. Though of course it's easier to say for me, since I was a hitman.
Either way. Whichever you pick it involves someone dying or being ereased out of existence. There's no winning option.
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[Sinks into his chair, running a hand through his hair, obviously frustrated.]
I've tried, but I just can't accept those as the only choices. I know I'm still immature, and I don't have a lot of experience either. Obviously, Emecchi is like a billion years old, and if he couldn't find a different solution in all that time, how will someone like me find a way to do it?
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I know you got a big mouth, but it would be nice if you kept this quiet for Silencchi's sake. I don't know if it's a secret, but I'm sure she wouldn't like it if everyone started talking about it to her.
Anyway, so Song is the original "owner" of her body, and Silence is a "Chain" that Song made a contract with. She's a marionette demon or something. Anyway, Song and Silence share one body. Oh, I guess Symphony is there, too, but uhh, I don't really know that much about her.
Now I don't really know for sure, but I have a feeling Song didn't really get a choice in sharing her body with Silence. I know I already said I wouldn't let anyone get rid of Silence, but I know it doesn't feel right to ignore Song's feelings either.
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[ but that's not the case now so let's focus on the actual important shit ]
I understand why you'd think of her circumstances as similar, but to be honest, they're not really. Well. Save for that same old question.
In this case, which one is more deserving to live on? You've obviously already made your choice, though I can tell you don't feel good about it.
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