I'm not saying that that makes murder irrelevant, it obviously doesn't. But his motives and methods don't change any of that, either. I remember I asked you if you were concerned that by allowing yourself to accept your teammates you would be a villain, as you Baritones are so fond of saying. And I admit part of me does wonder if you're struggling with that now as well.
The way I see it it boils down to one question. Who gets to decide whose life is worth preserving? Is it Emet-Selch, or is it his enemies? Accepting one means inevitably denying the other.
[ yeah. He notices, and that seems to be the intent ]
It's not black and white. Which is exactly why I said to try and discard right and wrong — at the end of the day that's always a matter of perspective. Though of course it's easier to say for me, since I was a hitman.
Either way. Whichever you pick it involves someone dying or being ereased out of existence. There's no winning option.
Silencchi isn't "whole", but she is whole to me so I'd never let anyone try to use her to fix someone else. But if Kurokocchi lost his memories of me and would lose his lifespan in the process, I'd want him to be whole again, too.
[Sinks into his chair, running a hand through his hair, obviously frustrated.]
I've tried, but I just can't accept those as the only choices. I know I'm still immature, and I don't have a lot of experience either. Obviously, Emecchi is like a billion years old, and if he couldn't find a different solution in all that time, how will someone like me find a way to do it?
So in other words, this hits you in a very personal way. Just so I can get a clearer picture of what's going through your head, can you tell me what's going on with Silence?
Huh . . . I guess so, but only because it was the easiest way for me to understand everything.
I know you got a big mouth, but it would be nice if you kept this quiet for Silencchi's sake. I don't know if it's a secret, but I'm sure she wouldn't like it if everyone started talking about it to her.
Anyway, so Song is the original "owner" of her body, and Silence is a "Chain" that Song made a contract with. She's a marionette demon or something. Anyway, Song and Silence share one body. Oh, I guess Symphony is there, too, but uhh, I don't really know that much about her.
Now I don't really know for sure, but I have a feeling Song didn't really get a choice in sharing her body with Silence. I know I already said I wouldn't let anyone get rid of Silence, but I know it doesn't feel right to ignore Song's feelings either.
You'll be relieved to hear that apparently, I only have a big mouth when it comes to you. I'm not in the habit of gossiping. Mostly. I'll do it if it's funny.
[ but that's not the case now so let's focus on the actual important shit ]
I understand why you'd think of her circumstances as similar, but to be honest, they're not really. Well. Save for that same old question.
In this case, which one is more deserving to live on? You've obviously already made your choice, though I can tell you don't feel good about it.
It doesn't feel right because neither of the options are right. Accepting Silence means denying that Song deserves the chance to live as her own person, and likewise, agreeing that Song has a right to the body that was originally hers means casting Silence as the villain of the story and implying she doesn't deserve to live. And that's without adding Symphony to the mix.
The best case scenario would be for the two to have their own body, but realistically speaking, that's wishful thinking.
Likewise. For Emet-Selch, accepting the lives scattered across those worlds as having equal worth to the ones that came before would mean abandoning his friends and loved ones.
Whether it's Song or Emet-Selch you're not going to find a realistic option that won't leave a sour taste in your mouth. That is, unless you accept that at the end of the day, who you care for is what matters to you.
In case it wasn't obvious, all I want is to avoid a situation in which you're torturing yourself for the sake of a nebulous concept. But ultimately, it's up to you to decide what you can live with.
Okay, but hear me out! We live in a hell world where we can buy an arm from our phones, is it REALLY wishful thinking to hope that we can get a spare body, too??
You can get a spare body. Whether your girlfriend's soul can be fractured and safely transported into one is another matter.
Of course it's not outside the realm of possibility by the rules of Hell. But by that point can you truly believe the end result will be her, and not an imitation? Are our hosts really so kind?
[ he'd feel bad, but he's pretty sure that sugarcoating would be worse. Still. He sighs ]
I'm not saying you shouldn't continue to look for a solution. You said earlier that if Emet-Selch hasn't found a different path yet there's no way you can find one, but that's not necessarily true. Emet-Selch was confined by the rules of his own world before, and so were Silence and Song. Annoying as this place is it does provide the potential of different outlooks, and different possibilities.
But like I said. I'd rather avoid having you torture yourself over your own feelings. If a solution cannot be found, you need to be prepared to come to terms with them.
It is. Nobody but you has a say on this, on who you consider a friend, on whose existence you decide to accept.
But if you cannot accept the way he's decided to accomplish his wish, well. Unlikely or not, nothing is preventing you from helping him find a different path. And you don't strike me as someone who'd stop trying just because odds are against you.
[He gets up, but pauses looking at Valocchi, and then SURPRISE, he looks over to Delores. He walks over to her and kind of (?) shakes her hand.]
Delorecchi, sorry you had to hear a lot of that since I know you lost your world, too. Thanks for keeping Valocchi company. Loneliness is the worst after all.
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The way I see it it boils down to one question. Who gets to decide whose life is worth preserving? Is it Emet-Selch, or is it his enemies? Accepting one means inevitably denying the other.
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[It looks like he’s struggling with that question.]
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It's not black and white. Which is exactly why I said to try and discard right and wrong — at the end of the day that's always a matter of perspective. Though of course it's easier to say for me, since I was a hitman.
Either way. Whichever you pick it involves someone dying or being ereased out of existence. There's no winning option.
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[Sinks into his chair, running a hand through his hair, obviously frustrated.]
I've tried, but I just can't accept those as the only choices. I know I'm still immature, and I don't have a lot of experience either. Obviously, Emecchi is like a billion years old, and if he couldn't find a different solution in all that time, how will someone like me find a way to do it?
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I know you got a big mouth, but it would be nice if you kept this quiet for Silencchi's sake. I don't know if it's a secret, but I'm sure she wouldn't like it if everyone started talking about it to her.
Anyway, so Song is the original "owner" of her body, and Silence is a "Chain" that Song made a contract with. She's a marionette demon or something. Anyway, Song and Silence share one body. Oh, I guess Symphony is there, too, but uhh, I don't really know that much about her.
Now I don't really know for sure, but I have a feeling Song didn't really get a choice in sharing her body with Silence. I know I already said I wouldn't let anyone get rid of Silence, but I know it doesn't feel right to ignore Song's feelings either.
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[ but that's not the case now so let's focus on the actual important shit ]
I understand why you'd think of her circumstances as similar, but to be honest, they're not really. Well. Save for that same old question.
In this case, which one is more deserving to live on? You've obviously already made your choice, though I can tell you don't feel good about it.
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The best case scenario would be for the two to have their own body, but realistically speaking, that's wishful thinking.
Likewise. For Emet-Selch, accepting the lives scattered across those worlds as having equal worth to the ones that came before would mean abandoning his friends and loved ones.
Whether it's Song or Emet-Selch you're not going to find a realistic option that won't leave a sour taste in your mouth. That is, unless you accept that at the end of the day, who you care for is what matters to you.
In case it wasn't obvious, all I want is to avoid a situation in which you're torturing yourself for the sake of a nebulous concept. But ultimately, it's up to you to decide what you can live with.
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Of course it's not outside the realm of possibility by the rules of Hell. But by that point can you truly believe the end result will be her, and not an imitation? Are our hosts really so kind?
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[Gonna go sink back into the chair, depressed again.]
...I know you’re probably right.
[But his face says he’s still fighting a lot of feelings.]
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I'm not saying you shouldn't continue to look for a solution. You said earlier that if Emet-Selch hasn't found a different path yet there's no way you can find one, but that's not necessarily true. Emet-Selch was confined by the rules of his own world before, and so were Silence and Song. Annoying as this place is it does provide the potential of different outlooks, and different possibilities.
But like I said. I'd rather avoid having you torture yourself over your own feelings. If a solution cannot be found, you need to be prepared to come to terms with them.
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It's okay if I still call him Emecchi, isn't it?
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But if you cannot accept the way he's decided to accomplish his wish, well. Unlikely or not, nothing is preventing you from helping him find a different path. And you don't strike me as someone who'd stop trying just because odds are against you.
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Wow. Thanks for the backhanded insult.
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HUH?! No, that was a compliment!!! A compliment!!!
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[waaaaaaaaaaaah 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭]
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Well. Forgive us common peasants for not being up to your standard of coolness, Wildfire.
[ look at how he manages to say all that with a straight face ]
I'll take the compliment, but more importantly. Do you feel any better?
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Yeah. Thanks, Valocchi. It's a little clearer now.
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Don't tell him I said it, but when you feel ready to, do reach out to him. I believe he needs it more than he realizes.
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[He gets up, but pauses looking at Valocchi, and then SURPRISE, he looks over to Delores. He walks over to her and kind of (?) shakes her hand.]
Delorecchi, sorry you had to hear a lot of that since I know you lost your world, too. Thanks for keeping Valocchi company. Loneliness is the worst after all.
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