intimitation

I was his bodyguard, too. Occasional babysitter.

Silence was the one who carried out any misdeed he asked. Murders, kidnapping, spying.

[trails off, this is a little awkward]

Edited 2020-07-21 20:14 (UTC)

[He's.

He's gotta process this.

In some ways, he doesn't feel surprised but also it's so hard to even imagine that his brain is bluescreening a tad bit.]

Uh-huh...

[blurting out, she gotta]

—I want to share my future with you!

That is... I did not want to keep this from you. I want you to know that you are dating someone who has been used as a tool, someone who has gotten blood on her hands.

If you found out later, much later, you could come to think I was keeping it from you... and even though it—... it is scary to think you could reject me for this, it is not fair for you to pursue a future with me if you did not... know...

[trails off, this is still Awkward]

I mean . . . I gotta admit, if this was like back at home, and Imeeji never happened, I'd probably have dumped you on the spot. I might have even called the cops if I thought you were still dangerous.

But how can I judge you when we're all in the same position now? We're just tools for their entertainment here. And even I can't say I don't have blood on my hands.

[Grabs her hand now anyway.]

Besides, I know Silencchi's true self. If it was just her own choice, she'd never do those terrible things.

...

Besides that one time you kinda kidnapped someone to help with my finger.

["have dumped you and might have even called the cops" damn son]

[—but she looks at his hand on her own, and even though she can't feel that contact she can feel RELIEF SURGING and her heart pitter-pattering]

Wildfire...

IT WAS VOLUNTARY, SHE AGREED

[THE LEVEL OF NORMAL OF HIS WORLD CANNOT BE CHALLENGED even tho i guess basketball boys can attempt to stab ppl and its fine?????]

Yeah, sure it was. What if she refused?

[basketball boys can try to stab people it is fine]

She would not have.

But what if she did?

I would have found someone else, for you are right—I do not want to do those terrible things. Not anymore.

[reaching to hug her tho]

Sorry for teasing you.

[quickly pulling him close, it's one of the tightest hugs he has gotten from her yet]

You do not hold yourself to harsh standards after getting blood on your own hands, do you?